This time around I choose to incarnate as a Chinese, to be born in Java, Indonesia at the middle of the last century. I also choose a lovely couple as my parents who were both Theosophists and a mixed community to grow up in, amongst Buddhist, Taoist, Confucianist, Hindus, Muslims and Christians. But all mixed or assimilated with the underlying traditional ancient Javanese mystical belief known as ‘Kejawen‘.
During my childhood in those community, what Westerners call “super-natural phenomena” are facts of our daily life. We heard stories about ‘Island hoppers’ in Ambon (East Indonesia), who can carry you on his back and hop to another island across the ocean in a blink of an eye, or spiritual gurus living in remote area as modest farmer in West Java (Banten) and Bali who can suddenly appear in front of his pupil in the city to pay a visit and then simply disappeared when he finished. Sai Baba wasn’t the only man who can teleport himself. And to me, nothing is strange about it.
After my High School, I went to Germany to study electrical engineering. Here I faced the challenge. My mystical belief was considered ‘rubbish’ or superstitious and no one can accept it in the West. After nearly ten years living in the West, my scientific mind as result of western scientific indoctrination clashes with my spiritual / mystical heart. And I was determined to reconcile them by learning and researching everything that I can get hold of. Every science especially modern physics i.e. Einstein’s Relativity Theory and Quantum Physics as well as all religions and belief systems including Theosophy. (How I picked my Theosophists parents?)
In 1989 I was reading and trying to understand The Secret Doctrine written by Helena Blavatsky. One afternoon while watching beautiful Sun-set in Seminyak Beach in Bali, I had a mystical experience which I call my ‘first stage of enlightenment’. At a sudden everything is so clear to me. I got the answers of all my questions. The whole key of the two thick Volumes of the Book “The Secret Doctrine” is written in the first few paragraphs at the beginning. All the secret is embedded in the four simple symbols etched on ancient palm leaves mentioned in the PROEM. (1. The Circle, 2. The Circle with the Center Point, 3. The Circle with a Diameter, and 4. The Circle with the Cross).
It took me a couple of years trying to write down what I knew from that experience onto paper using western scientific logic and language. Finally in July 1992, one month before Brian Greene published his “Super-string Theory“, I presented my paper entitled “The Ultimate Unification Theory” at The Fifth International Conference on THINKING at James Cook University, Townsville, Australia.
In August 1997 I had another mystical experience that I call “The Awakening to The Voice of ONE” where my consciousness merged into a huge ball of light which was ALL THERE IS. It gives me the proof of my Ultimate Unification Theory but much more than that, it totally changed my life. I no longer interested in promoting my theory or involving myself in any discussions or debates about anything. That experience give me the understanding / internally knowing that we are all ONE and each fragment of us have our own path to follow at our own pace.
The following sentence from the Ultimate Unification Theory expresses ‘my’ TRUTH.
“Every “I” is the same “I”, which is the Cosmic “I”
The only difference is the ‘subject pattern’ held as point of reference to experience other pattern, the objects.
Due to subject-object polarisation, the subject pattern identified itself as I am having the impression of being separated from the rest of the Cosmos, which is its illusion.”
Since that experience I had many other ‘weird’ experiences small and big, and some of them relate to my other lives (‘wearing other subject patterns’) and the history of this planet. The last one I experienced was when I first came to this planet during Lemurian era seeding the third root race (the Yellow race). Therefore I’d also like to call myself the Old China Man.
For my Gravatar I picked a picture that looks similar to myself in my last incarnation as a rice farmer wearing a straw hat and barefoot. I passed away consciously at the age of 73. And when I was out of my physical body I was overwhelmed by a kind of deep sadness and compassionate feeling because of humans suffering. It was the feeling that brought me back here this time around and it was also the feeling that made me understand the reason why Bodhisatwa Avalokiteswara a.k.a Quan Yin (the Chinese Goddes of Mercy) vowed not to enter Nirvana until every single human being is relieved from their suffering.
However, through all those ‘awakening’ experiences I am just an average human being like any other with no extra ability e.g clairvoyance, channelling or the like. In my physical body I still work full-time as a Senior Project Manager in an electric utility company in Queensland, Australia. In line with my professional work I’d like to call myself a “Lightworker” in literal sense, managing infrastructure projects to facilitate the transformation and distribution of positive energy.